Scared to become pregnant again

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Diana

So my first son is soon 1year old and I would like to try for second child but I'm scared as sh*t because with my first it was a nightmare for me. I didn't plan the pregnancy and was living in another country at the time. I found out really early but my blood sugars were awful before that, after i got two lines I put myself together and got my blood sugars under control. Real problems started on my second trimester when blood sugars started to play tricks and I always felt like the nurses and doctors didn't give a sh*t about me and thy were so rude all the time. Basically I didn't get any help with my diabetes because there was always some communication problems between nurses and be cause of that I missed many times my diabetes nurse appointments because they "forgot" to give me the dates it was supposed to be. I had to do it all by myself and no matter how hard I tried it still wasn't good enough because couple days high blood sugar was already too much and many times that was the time before I could figure out which insulin dose I had to change and how much. So I ended up many times in hospital to monitor my blood sugar instead for the nurse just make quick appointment with me and tell me what to do or just call me. For them it usually took only few minutes to figure out how. And every time i had my midwife appointment I just got some nasty looks and they really said things to me that made me feel like I was the shi*tiest person alive. I ended up being induced at 37weeks because my son was measuring too big and they were scared to let me go on with my pregnancy. My son was born 37+1 "naturally" and he had to go to nicu. I had barely few minutes to hold him and then they took him away. At first it was supposed to be just a check up and nothing serious but then the next morning I went to see him he was surrounded by monitors and i couldn't even hold him. His breathing was little weak and blood sugars low. After some time they also found out his heart was too big. Again every time some dr came to tell us what's going on with our son first thing they begin with was telling me how basically it was all my fault because I didn't keep my blood sugars under control. Every day new dr and the same sh*t while my son was right there beside me full of wires to monitor him. As if it wasn't enough for mother to watch her son suffer there. I was in tears. A week passed and we were transferred to another hospital. We ended up being 3weeks in hospitals before we could go home for the first time. This experience has left me with such trauma that I'm scared as sh*t to get pregnant again but then again I really wish to have another children. I feel like I would just like to run away and never show my face to any dr or nurses if I ever get pregnant again. 😔

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Me

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just start to take care of yourself now check your sugars take the meds keep in shape keep stress levels low and when it comes just set reminders to check your blood sugar and self manage if you have to which is what I did ..... I kept switching my basal rates to find what worked while I waited for my doctor appt an ditch worked out alright ... my daughter came naturally at 37 weeks she didn't have to stay in the hospital I had more problems with myself than with her after the birth .... just found I'm pregnant again however my blood sugars are out of control now because of stress and Medicaid won't pay for the actual meter I need nor the cgm stuff because I guess it's not necessary in their eyes so just trying to rake it slow and real in my sugars so I don't have to worry later on.... also it sounds like harassment and they can be sued for that just saying.... so if that happens I would drop the doctor and find a new one because all of mine were pretty supportive

Fa

Faith • Dec 5, 2017
Medicaid will pay for the dexcom. it takes some extra forms from the endo and a lot of advocacy for yourself. I've been on Medicaid for 4 months and the dexcom for 3.5. The system dies suck but you can make it work for you. there are several Facebook groups that might be able to help more

Al

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Omg you poor thing! That’s horrible how they have treated you, it’s really important to keep in contact with your team but they sound like a pack of wankers, I have felt with ppl like that and it can make matters worse, do you think if you have another baby in a different country that things will be different? If you really try to control your sugars early on they will have a different attitude? Things could go really good for you the second time with a different team and circumstances, don’t be put off trying again just do it in the best way possible that is safe for you and baby

Al

Alexis • Nov 11, 2017
I really feel for you and hope next time around is nothing like the last and best of luck hun

Di

Diana • Nov 11, 2017
I really hope so, thanks for your support :)

Al

Alexis • Nov 6, 2017
Every pregnancy is different I’m sure you will have a much better time with the next

Br

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you just need to have your a1c in line and be in control. I'm on #3 and pregnancy itself is doable but you have to be beyond on top of everything and have excellent communication with your medical team

Ab

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Oh my goodness my team is a nightmare too! Same thing about forgetting to send me appointment times etc, and then when I do go, I get bumped as they are too busy 😤 starting to think it would be easier just doing my own thing. I’m not a fan of letting them have as much control as they do... super frustrating as I am not meant to make any changes on my own.

Ha

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I've had two now and I missed so many appts they were the first to warn me my sugars were going to go crazy and if struggle to control them yet first to look down and say why are you bloods .... I think with my first i went to every one and with my 2nd I went to every 2nd one I was always 4 days of tight control 3 days of wonky/correcting nothing I could do about it I liked my 2nd pregnancy better but that's just me they couldn't tell me anything I didn't already know blood sugar wise any way just to keep correcting I'm going to have the same approach with them when we get pregnant with our 3rd p.s I don't recommend my method when your a ftm with diabetes