Just finding it hard... exhausting

Kyra • Had a miscarriage in July👼🏼.. Finally got my Christmas miracle and found out I was 4 weeks pregnant😍!! Been with my fiancé five years and had been trying for a baby since last September. kyraanorris.

So after loosing my baby at beginning of July, I gave myself a few weeks. But felt myself wanting to try again, so we done that. Struggling with PCOS too...

Nothing worked so far.

But this month I decided to do one random ovulation test just on day 14 in my cycle and there was the smiley face😊!

I hadn’t had time throughout the month because me and my partner are moving into a new house so been distracted.

Finally being able to sit down, I’ve noticed how frequently I’m running for a wee, little sharpe pains in my pelvic area and now a tiny bit of spotting. Why not do a test just to see? 6 days until my period mind, to quite early!! But this is what I see; a vvvf Line.... but I never trust blue dye tests.

So I brought a first response one, and by the looks on it, nothing😔... I’m just so exhausted, friends around me are falling so easily, sister in law is due same day I was meant to be due, so it’s all very hard for me, the constant reminder...

And there’s nothing I want more right now, but it’s just not happening. You guys know how annoying the words are you just need to be patient! I literally can not be patient whatsoever🙄🙄.... I think my mind creates a line there, it tricks me because I glare so hard at it hoping with my whole body.

Can anyone give advice? Help? I need it😭