So the guy I like, I thought he liked me back. Which was amazing to me. No guy ever likes me. But I am just a s confusing as him. First, I friend zoned him because I didn’t see him like that. We had only met and he was flirting. Then as we got to know each other, I started to like him, and we began talking without acknowledging we were talking. But we had planned to kiss because of a rigged bet. If he won he got two kisses, if I won I got a single kiss. But then my mom goes trough my phone because she’s really overprotective, finds out, and bans me from my phone. She also tells me to stop hanging out with him, putting this idea in my head that he was only going to hurt me in the end. So I ignore him. For one week. And he didn’t really fight for me. He came up to me once asking when we were going to kiss but I said I had to go, blowing him off. And that was the only convo we had in that week. Finally, my friend makes me go up to him and talk to him. I apologize, saying I didn’t know how to tell him I didn’t wanna kiss him. Yet I had no intention of that coming across as another friend zone. It did. I wanted to kiss him, but I didn’t want the kiss to be meaningless. We wouldn’t end up dating. So, we rebuilt our relationship, to the point where I honestly thought we were talking again. He hates when I’m late because I get detention so he told me to go to class, but I brushed it off saying that it was okay because the teacher liked me. He rebuttals with if you don’t go, I won’t like you anymore. Then I asked him “You like me?” He leaned in, and I thought we were going to kiss but we didn’t. He ended up hugging me and saying maybe as we finished the hug. I was a little surprised as he started to walk away but I responded with maybe I like you too, yet I’m unsure if he heard me. Then the next day, I planned to ask him out. Girl power. But we didn’t talk. We just made eye contact. He was standoffish. Then the following day he literally avoided me at all costs. I had to go up to him when he was walking away from me and ask him if we were okay. He said no but refused to tell me why. He looked as if he was about to cry, tears were brimming his eyes. I wrote him a letter explaining that I really fucking liked him and that he had to tell me why because it really hurt not knowing. My friend had to give it him because I couldn’t since I had to leave right after school. I don’t know if he read it because yesterday, which was Friday, he just brushed me off all day. And he lied to me to get me to leave. He would say that he’d tell me later and promise it then when I would go up to him he’d just deny my right of knowing. His friends know, we were talking about it in front of one of them. He kind of got that the guy I like was being mean. Anyways the guy I like was just telling me Bye the whole time I tried to talk to him. He then called one of my close guy friends my boyfriend saying to go back with him. So I sorta figured maybe he thinks that this guy is my boyfriend and I was just leading him on. But I denied the prospect of him being my boyfriend. Yet I’m not even angry about what he’s doing. Hurting me by just telling me to leave, and saying we’re not okay yet refusing to tell me why. I did this to him, so part of me thinks I deserve this. Except he never went up to me asking. He never really tried for me. I really really liked him. It’s scary because after feeling numb for so long, he made me feel. Oh yeah, I suffer from anxiety and depression so this is kind of really fucked up for me. And right now I’m going through something which he doesn’t know about or else I think he’d be nicer. Ughhhh!!!!