I suffer with recurring depression. I’m not on any medication anymore as I have been managing it okay. But since ttc I am so miserable every time I’m in my tww. It’s like the anxiety of not knowing triggers me and I spend the two weeks literally in a fog of despair. I have to drag myself up To go to work and force myself to do stuff when inside all I really want is to lay in bed for two weeks until it’s all over. I know it sounds dramatic and I know I’m being irrational but I get such anxiety with the unknown. Strangely as soon as af arrives I’m fine as at least then I know. I want a baby so so much I can’t think of anything else and I tear up whenever I see a baby in public but a huge part of me wants to give up ttc. At least then I won’t have to go through this anymore. I was feeling so positive this month but I am now 7dpo and my cervix is wide open so now I’m stressing that I’m out this month. I really just want to give up with this.