it never occurred to me that I wouldn't get pregnant on our first try... after all our first child came easy and by accident. we've only been trying for 3 months and the first two we weren't really tracking anything but last month I tracked my ovulation and everything to a tee so I figured this month was a sure thing for a BFP, I didn't see a reason why not. what an eye-opening and heartbreaking experience to find out that this was not my month... I even picked out the way I was going to announce it to my family at Christmas. but the reality is I am 7 years older now... I am 36 and my boyfriend is 42 and it may not be that easy for us and I don't think I've ever cried so hard. my daughter has such a big heart and the only thing she wants is a sibling. I understand there are ladies that have been trying for years and that's where I have to say a big kudos to everyone who's been trying for a long time because I don't know if I can face another disappointment month, but just goes to show how strong we are and I'm praying for each one of us on here to have a BFP!