So I have BDD body dysmorphic disorder. Different people have different types (some think they are obese, hideous, too skinny) but in extremes. I have break outs and so I pick at them and my disorder can cause me to hate how I look so much I can’t even function and the only thing that motivates me to move is I can’t afford to lose my job. I also feel like I have to put on a “brave face” for my husband. He knows about my disorder and fully supports and loves me...but honestly no one wants to be with someone constantly down on themselves. I really need to make time for the gym and myself. It’s so hard because I put Work, chores, cooking for him before me. I just wish I had the confidence some women have. This is me a month ago when we got married...just not as dark now.