(SORRY IF THIS IS LONG)

I feel in order to have sex, you need to be mentally, emotionally, and physically prepared for what’s coming.

Unfortunately, I know a lot of people are going to be judging me for this but I am 15. I’ll be turning 16 sooner or later, and my boyfriend is 18. We’ve been together for 2 years, except online. I met him 2 weeks ago.

It felt very vey normal, as in it felt good to be with him and nothing was awkward. I had a supportive family member come with me to make sure he wasn’t creepy before leaving him and I at his college alone.

One thing led to another and we kissed. It was my first, and felt very natural and comfortable. Then we began making out, and obviously us two began to get turned on. We both knew the consequences of having sex and we didn’t even really plan it out that we were going to but I ended up giving him a blowjob. I was on my period so I didn’t really feel like doing anything to myself so I enjoyed pleasuring him anyways. He came, and then we went out to go hang out and have some fun again to get to know each other more with my family member around.

He had to leave to drive back home for the weekend so we were back at his dorm for 30 minutes and I gave him another blowjob (please don’t judge me lmao) and he came again. We cuddled a lot throughout this and played a lot of video games and he even won me a few stuffed animal games when we were at an arcade place.

It was overall an awesome day, I’d really love to do it all again. We started talking about the possibility of sex the next time we meet up again. I’m surprised because I brought up the conversation at first and he seemed a bit hesitant because he wanted to know if I was ready (since the stigma is that guys only want sex or are desperate for sex). I really appreciated he was concerned for me.

We talked about it a lot and he said he’d get condoms for the next time we meet even if we don’t plan on having sex because you can see how our first meet up ended up, lmao.

I just wanted to know if you people think I’m ready for it. I’m not asking to be judged for my age, our age gap, or that I hurt your boo hoo feelings because I’m a 15 year old learning sexual experiences. Trust me, I’m in school and I have all A’s. I don’t need to be judged. I just need advice and an answer if you think I’m ready, that’s all.

Edit: Unfortunately, some people can’t really read so I’m going to have to say this again. I’m not looking to be judged, I asked for an answer. Yes, I get it seems I’m not ready if I’m asking but I’m trying to get an outside opinion, not some judgemental people. I already said the majority of the day was us hanging out in public doing fun things, even at his dorm room. I’ll be 16 by the next time I meet him and where I live it is legal. I don’t understand why all of you are so unbelievably rude. You come to a post where someone says to not judge and you do it anyways when all I needed was some reassurance. Our relationship is not based off everything sexual, fml. If it was we’d be having sex by then the entire time we were meeting. *sigh*