Ok, so I’m 19 and my husband is 29 (yeah hug age gap I know) and we have been married a year and a half now.

Before we got married, he was always really sweet and paid so much attention to me and would give me meaningful kisses and cuddles and he would call me beautiful and text me cute messages about how he loved me.❤️😍😘

Fast forward and we got married, and on our honeymoon which was 10 days long in Sandiego, we only had sex 3 times which was fine, it was my first time so I was sore for a bit so it didn’t strike me as odd.🤔 Except I expected him to want it a lot more since when we were dating he would get hard just holding me and kissing me..😇😐

So after we got home it went down hill a little more.. 😞we would have sex maybe once every week and a half. It broke me, I felt like he didn’t like me or thought I was ugly or something.. and he wasn’t really loving anymore. He loves me still but he would say I love you or you look pretty today, I would always have to say I love you first and I would always have to ask if I look nice just to get any kind of connection from him.

So fast forward to now and it’s basically the same. We have sex basically once a MONTH now😰 and I have a high sex drive so it’s really hard for me.. we have gotten into some pretty bad fights about it which I hate and it just makes me hate myself... he never compliments me or even makes and effort to spend time with me.. all he does is wake up go to work (we live where we work so I know what he’s doing all day so it’s not that he’s just to tired to spend time with me..) he comes home and watches sports till bedtime, then we go to bed and he stays on his phone till he falls asleep. I can barely even get him to hold me for a bit before bed..😓

I’ve started having these horrible dreams at night where he loves another girl and leaves me crying and sobbing, or where he plainly tells me he never loved me and thinks I’m ugly and hates me...

So this is my life now. I love him so much we still have good laughs and good days sometimes.. but In the long run I’m just not getting what I need from him to make me feel important to him or like he even cares about me anymore... I need help he seems so happy with life while I feel like I’m slipping into depression and I’ve talked to him about it many times..

Is there any tips on just learning to love myself to be happy in life again? I just want too feel again....