Hyperemesis- don't know if I can do this...

I feel so guilty that I can't seem to enjoy being pregnant. I suffer with PCOS, so this baby is so wanted, but I am going insane. I haven't eaten a meal in a month and have spent 5 days in hospital on a drip. I am signed off work, so I am spending all of my time alone. I have constant nausea and even all of the meds they have given me can't stop me from throwing up. I can't see an end and it's getting me so down. 😭

anyone else in the same boat? please tell me I'm not alone.