My cousin came to a family lunch we had today and announced her pregnancy. I was so upset I wanted to cry and then I hated her and everyone who was happy for her. Then I felt horrible because that is a terrible reaction to have. I love my cousin but I feel like everyone I know is pregnant and happy and I’m empty. I’m trying so hard. Supposed to start my clomid tonight and we have been trying for over a year. I went to college and got a degree and now I have money and I’m ready but my body doesn’t work. I’m so tired of people telling me my time will come. My family told me it’s my turn now cuz I’m the only one without kids. I had to smile and tell them “not yet” because I didn’t feel like explaining and I didn’t want to ruin it for my cousin. I really feel like crap and I’m starting to think my time will not come 😞