My S/O and I have a good relationship,he gives me the world and more we are expecting our first child as well, I have lots of anger built up inside like when I can't control things I lose control on going for 4 years taking it out on him,one night my S/O and I had an argument in his defense all he wanted to do was hold me but he made me upset the day before and lashed out on him,I started yelling and hit him...he wasn't answering so I hit him again😞 and then he slapped me I was shocked and like "oh you hit females now" I stated to provoke him he slapped me again...threw me on the bed and said "oh you want to fight like a man and he got on top of me and knocked his head against mine not once but twice (ouch)at that point he was like I'm pissed now!!, i cried so bad and he was like "I always hate to see you cry like this but I have no remorse for you after everything iv ever done for you this is what it comes to,where's the respect!?" I started thinking,and realized it is my fault😭

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I woke up this morning ready to leave, he asked me why couldn't we just sleep our anger off and speak in the morning,he told me not to leave and he wants to still continue to take care of me because he loves me,he wants to make this marriage work and he just wants a wife who will support him...I decided to stay because I love this man,we working on things right now...but I'm still in shock about the whole situation...how does one move forward from here😕??