Ttc kinda

Me

So ladies (sorry about long paragraph) 🤦🏻‍♀️here’s my dilemma I came of pill 7 weeks a go panicked thinking I hadn’t had a period and thought preggers so me and my partner were actively trying and now I’ve had a period 10/11 - 15/11 had unprotected intercourses 14/11 as just discharge signalling ending period , I spoke to my partner about still trying last night and now he’s saying he wants to wait until next year like december so we have our own place he works and has good income , I don’t due to bad hips previously did but to much looking for office work now tho ( background awaiting surgeon to decided what’s happening to correct positions as there wrong way ) , so back to it ? He now doesn’t think he wants one but I’m like supper depressed about it , as we were actively trying before my period in hope that I’d get pregnant cuz we thought we were , I’m at a loss we didn’t use protection other day (during period) am I silly for feeling this way I’ve been kinda down since before Christmas last year anyway due to an unplanned, unknown pregnancy mc , but don’t think it’s fair how before period he was all for it and now like yeah let’s wait , im so down about it 😭it’s what I’m dying for we’ve been together 1 1/2 years and engaged just don’t know if I’m being silly or not for feeling the way I am , and weather I should just say it’s what I want but don’t want to pressure him ? I’m just so broody and this is what would make me so happy , and what I need I think after previous mc , were very stable so why not ? If my partner was willing to have one when We thought there was a chance I could be why not now ? 😭😭🤷🏻‍♀️