So I've been with my fiance for almost 8 years. We have 4 boys. We grew up in the same small town. He's 3 years younger than me..always a friend of my brother. He's had a crush on me since he was 5. Finally after high school and moving away and coming back home again I gave it a shot. Skip ahead...got the surprise of my life when I took a test and it showed positive. wow. I was taking the patch. My youngest was almost 5 and I was sure I was done having babies... but I was so excited and so was he. Found out another boy coming.. I wasn't disappointed like I thought I'd be. yay a new baby...horrible shitty pregnancy. I worked 6 shifts a week... but why.. he finally got that awesome job we have been waiting for. so why can we barely make it week to week..he was never home..gone half the night..like what is going on..so fast forward..pregnancy was still horrible..he was never there. had 3 kids home and worked 6 shifts. me and conor barely made it thru delivery. we had 30 seconds. things were good for a week then it started again. so 3 weeks ago I said get out. enough it enough. what the hell is going on. it all came out.. He's a drug addict. coke and crack. been doing it the whole year. the money wasted and hour wasted are gone now. he swears he will change. no more late nights but I can't trust him now. not to mention my children.. And the time they lost. I can't believe this after 7 years and 4 children. the money he has thrown away and making me think I was crazy for a year. advice plz