Calling all rational women!! Please help me!!

Let me start by saying I know there is no line on that HPT and that I feel like a complete psychopath!!!!! Please tell me I'm not the only one who loses all reasoning and self control this time of month??? LOL. How embarrassing!!! Last month I suffered a chemical. I had positive tests (on digitals too), for 3 days then started bleeding like it was my job. I went to my Dr, HCG dropped from 16 to 3 and I was miscarrying naturally. Although it sucked, I was thankful to not need a DNC. Fast forward to this month, positive opk on CD 18 (which is normal for me). Because I am a complete loser with no self control I start testing 7DPO with wondfo opk and hpt. All BFN on HPT. Opk' were near positive, but not. Now today at what I thought was 9DPO I'm getting blazing positive OPK. Clearly I am messed up from the chemical and now ovulating CD 27 which is super late (31 day cycle). My bff tells me OPK can pick up early pregnancy. So now I'm back to losing my mind and staring at my last HPT. Please tell me there's nothing there so I can go about my day! LOL PS I did order some FRER's on Amazon. As a way to self control, they won't be here until Saturday. OK here's my pic that's making me crazy. THANK YOU LADIES have a wonderful day. 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

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