Please tell me I’m not crazy!

My hubby and I have been TTC for just about a year and a half now, with two MC and two rounds of clomid under our belts I can’t help but feel like I am loosing my mind trying! As every month and cycle passes time seems to stand still! All the counting, testing, blood work and still nothing! 😢 I’m mad, sad, frustrated and feel downright crazy! I don’t have anyone in my family or group of friends that can relate to all of the emotions I’m feeling on a daily basis. Today was the day AF was NOT suppose to come visit, but yet here she is again! Another month wasted . My hubby keeps telling me to stay positive and not feel like a complete failure every month I have to tell him we were unsuccessful, but how is that possible?!?