In the middle...

Lately me and my boyfriend have been in our greatest time, it just feels so right and the relationship is going so smoothly I couldn’t be happier

A couple weeks ago we had unprotected sex, although he didn’t cum in me I just got the feeling that it had been a risky frisky session, we really didn’t think about it, also by that time I was about to enter into my fertility window, the thing is I’ve been thinking about the possibility that I could have gotten pregnant. I’m 19. At first I was like “okay this might not be the right time so I could just take an abortion pill” ***before you analyze what I just said let me explain myself: my parents are Mexican, not the very strict ones though but still, babies or even sex before marriage would transform me into a disappointment to them, my whole family is even worse than my parents, I know I would be more than judged by them, my sister went through the same thing and everybody acted mean***

While the days passed I started changing my mind? I realized I could NEVER abort my child, I just can’t do it, I have my boyfriend as my greatest support and The idea of creating a family with him always brings a smile to my face, although I don’t feel young being at my age, my parents see me as if I was 16 (and that’s understandable). What I mean to share with you guys and I hope I can get your thoughts is: If I was pregnant, I would of course have the baby, but I need emotional strength to not feel judged or insecure between some family members for not waiting for what they call “the right time” to start a family. So basically I want to be pregnant, but I would also like to wait some more time, you know? That’s why I say I’m in the middle.

I’m sorry my post was hella long I needed to let it out