good morning/afternoon ladies! 💕 so lately i have been going through a rough patch. i haven’t been able to find myself and i depend on bad things to allow myself to be happy. i’ve been used and manipulated by guys and my ex-friends. i was sick of it so i got a therapist so i can talk about how i’m feeling since i can’t to my parents.

recently i started finding comfort in this kid in one of my classes. he seemed to hate me at first but we slowly became friends and i came to him when i was most vulnerable and having breakdowns every five minutes. he comforted me and talked to me and helped me through my roughest patch ever and i couldn’t help but slowly fall for him.

last night i asked him some questions because i wanted to surprise him with a gift as a thank you for helping me out and being there for me. he called me and told me he was so happy that me saying “no” and rejecting this guy who would just constantly use me had made him so happy and he hadn’t felt that kind of happiness in a long time. he is just the absolute sweetest and most caring guy i have ever met. but there’s a catch, he’s not over his ex.

he’s been through a lot in his life too so his last ex meant a lot to him. they broke up five months ago and he still cares deeply for her even though she’s completely over him. which is why i don’t wanna pursue falling for him or even make it obvious or anything because i don’t want to get hit with the “i care about you as a friend” talk..but yesterday i was on the brink of tears over this guy that would constantly use me. he stood up and started yelling so passionately to me about how i am entitled to do what i want to do and that i am more strong than i think i am, he said he didn’t want to see me get hurt again. and then he hugged me...he hasn’t hugged anyone since his ex...

so should i just sit this one out or should i try to get his mind off his ex?? because he’s so caring, it’s hard to tell if he has even the slightest feelings for me or if he’s just being a good friend..