Had my boy ! My birth story is hectic!!

Went to get induced as I️ was at 41 weeks ,

I️ am high risk I️ don’t dilate but when I️ went in I️ was at 2cm so I️ was very happy things were getting there , they gave me pitocion

To get things going .

I️ reached 5cm and wanted an epidural I️ didn’t take any other type of pain medications.

My epidural sucked sweet girl but she completely did it wrong it hurt like hell like someone was slicing my back open and burning it with a cigarette it was fricken traumatic I stated going into shake convolutions and I️ told her to stop and fix that she did it to the left and that had my whole left side numb and right sowhat where it tingled but I️ could feel slight contractions still my back hit so bad to lay on it and to move my body was so hard because it felt so weird ..

Well they checked me because I️ started feeling pressure and my contractions naturally were right after another so they lowered my pitocion,

My sons heart rate kept dropping randomly , so I️ had to lay on my left side MY LEFT SIDE WAS THE NUMB SIDE. So it was very awkward and painful !

I️ kept telling them and they said it was normal umm no its not !

Anyways I️ went from a 5-8 cm in a hr and the a 10+ and I️ could feel pressure so many women ask what it feels like? It feels like u have to take a dump lol but u can’t like ur constipated or been holding in a bowel movement or fart it is a pressure that makes u want to push something out .

They told me I️ can start pushing , so as I️ began to push my sons heart rate kept dropping so I️ had to wait ever other contraction ... I️ pushes for 2 hrs it was so hard and I️ was feeling confused I️ has a natural birth before and pushed my son out at 6com because I️ had to and I️ can’t push this child out at 10+ ?! Wth is going on ?!

No progress at all he wouldn’t go pass my pelvic bone ! I️ was confused exhausted thirsty and in pain!!

They had to put a fetalo monitor on him through my vagina on this head and put water in me because his waster bag was out and that meant he had only 1-2 hrs to come out which he wasnt

So the doctor came in and told me that it looks like we need to have a c section because there is no progress , and the more his heart rate drops we can put him at risk for seriously brain complications and disorders , that not enough oxygen will get to him .. so emergency csection it is !

I️ was fricken terrified and devastated I️ know many women have c sections but I do my hormones or what but I️ felt like I️ failed , like I️ failed myself as a mom I️ had this perfect plan how I️ would give birth and heal and just everything I had in mind , going to surgeryscared me so much especially because my epidural hurt and didn’t work the way it should ... which there is more to this ..

So .. they had to check me and give me another form that links my epidural to the surgery type they checked and noticed my epidural was out and I️ effected 🙄 I’m duh I️ was telling you all it was fucking done wrong and I’m in pain wtf !!! (Sorry how I️ felt then lol)

So I️ had to get another ...

mind u my contractions were one after another , and I️ was at 10+ cm dilated and pressure ...

they said what ever u do don’t push!

And I️ was shaking like seizure shakes due to all the pain I️ was in having an epidural during contractions are so fricken painful I️ was so scared it was going to feel the same pain😩😭 thank god this guy did it right omg we was praying think they heard me haha !

I️ because sick and nauseous from all the drugs and being in labor for 28 hrs not having anything but ice really turns your stomach!

Non the less surgery went well felt super awkward no pain but being numb was very uncomfortable, I️ was exhausted literally falling asleep then my son was BORN !!!

He was face up which is why he wouldn’t go though the canal his poor face was swollen du to me pushing and his face being pushed in rather than his head my poor baby!

My body suffers from extreme swelling I️ really think it’s because of my first epidural 🙄 it’s so bad I️ can’t even walk still sucks and hurts to do anything I️ can’t even clothe myself 😭

My tummy has lower diastasis recti. Idk what to do about that if anyone has tips or knows anything that has helped with it PLEASE HELP A MOTHA OUT ! Lol

And my incision area is still healing I️ have those bandages on it I️ forgot what they are called but they took out my staples in the hospital .

What This post is about is im asking any mommy’s have this and would like to share how they over come it or post their bod pics of recovery idk I️ feel like mine isn’t going to go away 😭 I’m very emotional about my boy and insecure my first birth didn’t go smooth but my body wasn’t like this my postpartum tummy didn’t look like this !

My tummy hangs over my incision and it hurts , like feels bruised .. idk is that common ?

Help mommies need a mommy friends 💗 and support