Right now that I’m writing this I’m trying to hold back tears, I’ve actually been doing that since yesterday, because I don’t want to cry over him anymore. I don’t know for hoe long I can manage that. My bf (ex bf) and I had an on and off relationship for four years. I don’t want to talk about the past incidents, all the times he broke my heart, cheated, pretended that he loves me, destroyed my confidence...I wanna talk about yesterday.

Two months ago he came back to me after a 5-month break up and begged me to be with him. I told him I don’t love him anymore, he said it’s fine he’ll wait till I do, he even said I can not sleep with him for as long as I want. Time passed and things were good, and I started to have feelings for him again. Don’t ask me why and how. He’s my first and only love, and he’ll always be in my heart.

About two weeks ago I completely let my guard down for him and opened up about my feelings and he did the same. He even started planning our future, our marriage. Everything was better than it had always been in the past.

Now I can’t explain what happened last night, so you can just see the screenshots from the past three days.

So these are from 3-4 days ago:

These are from yesterday:

And these are from today:

And then he just stopped talking so the last thing I said was: No point trying for someone that treats you like trash all of a sudden for no reason after all that love, right? I had actually fallen for you. Bye.

He didn’t answer, but I feel like I did the right thing. I put am end to it. He’d just leave me hanging till I text him again. I can’t believe this happened. He said he’s not satisfied with things. And I was like, with what? I loved him, I was loyal af, I was patient, I found him so many jobs, his family liked me.

I really had to get this out. I know ppl might say why did you trust him or why did you let him talk to you like that. I know. But right now I’m feeling so sad...I dunno if I can ever be happy again. I fell in love with him when I was so young and innocent...I just want to be happy again.

I’ll be very thankful if you share your opinion...I’d appreciate it