So me and this dude was having sex, like miiiiinndd blowing. In a way it felt spiritual because we had strong bonds. He knew my body better than i did. Once me and him stopped being a “thing” i cant enjoy sex with anyone else, i fake it alot of times. Its like if its not with the dude then it does not feel right, but im human and i like sex. I feel like i should just give up on finding someone to make me feel as good as he did.... but at the same time i like sex ....

DO YOU SEE MY CONFLICTING FEELINGS?! HELPP !!