I am turning 40. Was married when i am 19 and have 2 children and Dvorced.Now my girl 20 and boy 17 . During i am single again, i always trying to look another love that really meant for me..i was young and stupid then so i end up here and there..to make story short i've done few abortion for some reasons..2 or 3 times and one of them is ectopic pregnancy so i lost my right ovary. I ask if i can get pregnant again that time she said yes as a matter of fact all my eggs goes to my left ovary and so easy to get pregnant as i ever was. But..as i am getting mature i focus myself on my job..work work and work. So seriously no sex life in 5 yrs. and the next one in 3 yrs Until one day i met this guy and thinking..he is not only someone but he is the one. We recently just get married last month. I am 40 and he is 33 ( i know right ;) ) And yeah.. my dream to have ideal family alive again...why now?...where were you on my fertile days..the time that even a man left me the underwear i could pregnant???... Sometimes i feel guilty about the "unwanted babies that i get rid of.. but we all make mistake aren't we??. And now i seriously want to have children with him as he never married before so it will be the first time for him..i love him so incredibly much. A month after married he left me to his country and i was hoping that i am pregnant..but its like nightmare to see the single strip on that kit. So i keep eating fertility booster and hopefully on his next visit (next month) it will happen :)