period is due 21st 😐

af is due 21st of this month I'm hoping and praying she doesn't arrive as I'm sick and tired of waiting for my bfp and not getting it I'm feeling hopeless and negative towards myself as I feel I could be doing more even tho I'm pushing myself to my limits it's driving me insane I got baby on the brain and it's driving me insane 😭 healthy and happy 9months and also a very strong dose of baby dust to every one ttc I wish you all the best in what life may bring you all 😙❤❤ UPDATE: af showed her horrible face on the 21st I'm out guys I need a break from all this heart ache 😢😭