Bad Baby Fever at 18

Please no hate for this. Lately I’ve been feel really down and depressed all the thoughts about a baby excite me. I honestly hate seeing happy families with young toddlers. I don’t even want to go to a store that sells anything baby related, so much is making me think. I want a baby so bad and I’m in college now. I’m 18, and a licensed cosmetologist. I have a stable environment and me and my man have been together for 3 years and he’s 21. He honestly loves the idea of a little one. But my mom knows I’m on the pill so if I stopped there’d be issues. I’m just really wanting to.. and I don’t know. Everyone in my family would say I’m stupid and irresponsible...