Hi fellow July moms!

I found out that I’m pregnant with #1 a couple of weeks ago (Due July 10, 2018!). I am really struggling emotionally. My dad, who I was extremely close to, died very unexpectedly the day after I found out. I was with him when it happened and called the paramedics. I was able to tell him I was pregnant and I saw him smile and nod, so I knew he heard me. I’m having such a hard time with the holidays and also trying to be positive about the pregnancy. I’ve just had this extreme shift of emotions from finding out and telling my husband, to 24 hours later being alone in the emergency room being told my father had died. I’m 31 and this would have been his first grandchild at 68; although my step siblings have also had kids, I knew this would be different. My heart is broken and I’ve barely told anyone about the pregnancy except for some of my siblings and my stepmom. My husband is over the moon excited and I am just a giant ball of stress and emotions... I’m afraid I’m going to stress this bean right out of me. I’m sure I’m not the only one struggling with grief and loss. I know it will get better... we got to hear the heart beat last week ❤️ which definitely made it feel more real and lifted my spirits.

We can find out the sex through the blood work at my next appointment but my husband wants to be surprised.... I don’t know if I can stand to wait since I know we’ll have an answer soon!! Anyone else have this issue? How do you even begin to compromise?

Hope everyone has a safe and healthy pregnancy! 💕

UPDATE: happy thanksgiving! It’s been a difficult week preparing for the holiday while missing such a big presence... but we told my mom and MIL yesterday before the rest of my family came over. It was perfect! SO MUCH SCREECHING 😂

This is the first grand child for both. Next big day to survive will be Christmas... and we are major Christmas freaks so that will be a hard one. I am so thankful so your kind words and support, Happy Holidays! ❤️