today I was supposed to say hello ๐Ÿ˜”

so my story is back in July I had a late miscarriage at 20 weeks. I had all the pain of Labour but came home with just a memory box. today is my due date and I don't know how to get through the day. we have been ttc again but no luck. I thought this year was our year but it wasn't meant to be and I'm heartbroken ๐Ÿ’”