Most pathetic rant ever.

So I was born with cerebral palsy and through my life I've overcome a lot of CP-related insecurities. I couldn't even sit up until I was 4 years old. I've had 16 surgeries to get me to walk. Now I'm slaying it in small-medium height wedges. Pretty proud of that and I've been feeling good about my achievements.... But here's the rant part. I still can't run, and I'll never be able to. My muscles are still weak, tight and painful. I still have very poor balance. I'm in pain every day. Because of this I am not flexible or agile in any way. I saw a woman in the street crouch down to hug her little girl today and I realised I'll never be able to do that. It hurt so bad 😢 on top of that my fiancé has the peachiest ass I've seen in my life and I can't get on his level because I can't squat 😭 I just had to get this out. It's keeping me awake