Idk how everyone else is feeling that is having trouble TTC but I think I’ve been hit hard with depression over everything. Been TTC for almost 2 years. My gynecologist recommended a fertility specialist to us and we have been doing that. All the tests were done. Turns out my husband has immaculate sperm (like for real according to the fertility doctor). But apparently I’m the issue. I have low ovarian reserve for my age. I don’t feel that old, hell... I’m not that old. Anyway, to the point that the doctor tells me if you want a baby we need to start getting aggressive with this. We don’t need to wait 2-5 years because it may be too late. Which just hearing that is like a slap in the face. How can my body fail me when this is something I want so badly? Also, I have to go have exploratory surgery in a few weeks to see if I have endometriosis on top of that. I feel like there is a huge weight on my shoulders. My husband is trying to make me feel better about it but I can’t help but cry all the time about it. I feel like a failure at the one thing I’ve dream my whole life of having. But have waited almost too late for it. Really I haven’t been back on here since I got the news 2 weeks ago. Until today. Maybe all the obstacles ahead will lead to that precious bundle of joy. Lord I pray that it does. Sorry for my little rant. I just don’t feel like anyone I know understands it. Everyone I know has gotten pregnant easily. And they all say it will happen, I’m sure of it. But the thing is, it happened for all of them. Idk if it will happen for me.