I try to stay strong and positive for my son and my man. It’s getting closer to to the date I would have had my baby. Ever since I lost her I feel empty and lost, I have more better days than bad ones I can at least say that. But yesterday I was washing laundry and came across a newborn onesie and for a spit second thought ‘I really need to get my over night bag ready.’ Then I stopped instant tears and panic attack. I keep thinking about December 31st cause that was my date date. As that day gets closer the more I find myself drifting in thought getting lost. Does this happen to anyone else?