TTC for the past few years

Vero

My period is late, I took two pregnancy test and both are negative. My periods are not regular (40 average) I am 5 days late and not pregnant. I miscarriage twice, my second was in March this year. I really would like some guidance or feedback. We are TTC for a while, I am 36 and I want a baby so bad that I am often developing a psychological pregnancy. I think I am pregnant but not at all.