Just broke up with my boyfriend.. it was the hardest. He was my first love. For a year I felt disconnected emotionally.. felt alone in the relationship , unappreciated, i cried everyday , and yesterday I just had enough. I don't even know where to start or what to do. Being in that relationship drained me.. I feel so insecure and just everything.. I was unhappy for a year sexually because he never wanted to do any type of foreplay which left me feeling not worthy and never once just treated me like I was special to him. I'm 19 and letting go was the most hardest thing. I cried all day. But I just know god has something in store for me.. no one deserves this. I had a jail relationship for a year and felt he wasn't there emotionally but I stuck it through because I didn't want to leave him I was unhappy. After he got out it only got worse several times he said he thought it would be best to be friends but I told him I didn't want to. But I just said fuck it. It's not worth being that loyal to someone and giving someone so much for them to treat you like that..

I just need someone to tell me everything is going to be okay..... you know?