I lost it and I feel so upset, I have never felt less then good enough, I don't feel whole and I feel dirty. When I realized what I had done I cried and my boyfriend didn't do a great job soothing me and when we got to my house he started crying and I had to calm him down and everything. I don't know what to do. I want to resort to bad habits so badly . And I'm trying to stay strong and not but I need help. I can't tell my parents and when I try and talk to my bf all he does is throw a pity party. It didn't hurt and it wasn't forced. Help.