i hate my body

I have extremely irregular periods and have since i was younger. was on all different birth controls to help "regulate" which never really happened, and about 2 years ago i gave up. i dont want to be on birth control because my fiance and i are trying to conceive, but then again,my periods are so unpredictable i can never tell when is a right time to try. i can get it once every 3 months or as often as 3 times a month. ive even had it for 42 days straight before. my last period ended 12 days ago ,then Friday afternoon - saturday i started cloting really badly and then poof!it was done less than 24 hours later.

does anyone have any similar stories? maybe something that worked for you? because at this rate i will try anything ! im so sick of my period !!