I'm so sorry....

on May 22nd of this year I had an abortion. I had my reasons and it was the hardest decision I've ever made in my entire life. I have always wanted nothing more than to be a mom and never thought I would get one...but I did. Now I feel so heartbroken and depressed all the time and I have stopped taking care of myself and I feel like my current relationship is on the rocks because I can't get over what I've done. I'm not asking for anyone to judge me or hate me because I do that enough every day by myself. I just want to know...will I ever feel better or am I going to hate myself forever...