Gender-Fluidity and Me

Hope • fellow human with vagina

There is an ambiguity to me, that I've recently become aware of. I mean, I look female. There's nothing about my body that's ambiguous. It's more or less the way I function mentally. Since I was kid, I identified more with boys my age. I identified with male characters more than I did girls. I got in trouble a lot because I didn't behave like girls my age. My mom would have to tell my teachers that they had to treat me like a little boy because that's how I acted. And that, has never really changed. I don't get along with other girls, I don't act like other girls, I don't feel like other girls. Now, don't get me wrong. I'm female. I was born female, I'd like to stay female. But my entire life, I have been told that I need to act based on my gender, and not on who I am as a person.