I’m just trying to figure out how to deal. How did you guys deal with your loss? I am a lesbian who was able to conceive on our first try with my second biological baby. We were a few days shy of passing the first trimester and about 10 days before we found out we had a healthy baby with a strong heart beat. I just don’t get it, and the worst part is when we went this past Wednesday for an ultrasound I didn’t notice that there was no heartbeat I was too busy admiring how quickly the baby was forming. My wife and DR didn’t knowing how to make me realize but finally the Dr says “there is no heartbeat “ and it’s like since then I’m just not myself. I don’t know how to me better and move forward I just feel stuck in all the what if’s as I continue to go through the motions. This heartbreak just feels unbearable.