Feeling like a failure and boyfriend isn’t helping

So I have been feeling down recently, I had my little girl just over a month ago. Before I had her I was adamant I was going to breastfeed, wouldn’t use dummies, would have my baby settled without needing me constantly. All of those things haven’t happened. Unfortunately baby wouldn’t latch so I had to bottle feed, she has colic and have been advised to use a dummy as it’s the only thing that will settle her at night and whenever she cries she will only settle if I hold her. I decided to tell my boyfriend how I feel and his reply was why are you feeling sorry for yourself. Honestly just feel like shit and thought he’d be the one person to reassure me that I’m doing ok.