Not feeling pregnant...

I’m so tired of not feeling pregnant, I get my ultrasound Friday but still feels so far away! In August I had a blighted ovum and I’ve been stressing since I got my 2 pink lines.. I had my HCG test and it was 2023 and then somewhere in the 3000’s (I didn’t pay to much attention because my doctor was happy with the numbers) but it’s still stressing me out. Hubby and I have been praying for this baby for so long, I should feel excited and instead I’m freaking out.