I found out on Facebook that one of my best friends is pregnant with baby #2. this selfishly upsets me for the following reasons: 1, she posted her pee test right after she took it, 2, I am pregnant with my rainbow baby (5 weeks) after 6 years and 3 losses and she never even said congrats... and 3, I found out she didn't believe I ever lost babies. That's partly my fault, my friends have children, so I spared them the gory details and kept it between me and my fiance...but because of this, apparently they understand my pain, or that I was pregnant so much because I was TTC. I had an ectopic pregnancy in May, and even though I included them, of the four of us, only one actually supported me through all of that. I don't know why her immediate announcement upsets me so much... I know it's wrong. she'll never know I feel like this, and I AM happy for her. it just hurts that I couldn't get my friends to hop on board for my wedding, so we decided to elope, and now it's my wedding day AND my due date. which means our due dates will be incredibly close together. (talk about a double whammy) this should be a dream, all of us have been friends for 15 years... but how could I find out on Facebook with everyone else? it hurts that I can't share my secret because of my history, but she just puts it out there now, even though she's a week behind me. I wish I felt so at ease I could do that, so I called her and told her I LOVED her... and got off the phone and cried. I hate myself for never feeling safe enough to feel joy, and for ever feeling anything negative about her pregnancy. ughhhh. rant over.