BHCG tests...

Ok so according to my calendar I’m 5w3d preg. I have a “pregnancy confirmation US” scheduled in two more weeks at 7w.

I just gave birth to my full term stillborn son 4 months ago. I am petrified to say the least. I have also suffered MMC before him. I asked my dr office to run betas on me until I can get in for the US so I’m not blindsided and we’re pretty convinced there will be something on that screen.

They sent it over and numbers have been looking good. They called today to say not to do anymore that I just need to wait till my apt. Ummmmmmm you’re speaking to someone who’s womb just killed her perfect baby. I feel like if a silly thing like numbers make me calmer what’s the big deal?! Should I just keep going since I have the script?