I need tips on how to cope.

Unmedicated.

22 yo female.

Anxiety/depression.

History of emotional/mental abuse from father - where the ed came from. He’s no longer in my life.

I’m not big into exercise. I lose faith quickly and don’t have anyone to motivate or exercise with me because my husband works odd shifts.

I honestly hate myself after I go on a binge. I used to purge but refuse to let myself do that now. Instead I just hate myself and the super loud, super rude conscience speaks up and tells me how disgusting and ugly and gross I am. It kills my husband. He always tells me how beautiful I am but I can’t accept it.

I’m 5ft, 216 lbs. I am overweight but I just can’t seem to lose it. I try and try and nothing works then I lose hope and go back to this.

I’m scared to leave this with my name on it but I want to be able to respond to comments so here we go...