Horribly conflicted and alone

I’m struggling in my relationship with my boyfriend of 5 and a half years. He’s mostly happy, only issue being not as much sex due to me. I’ve been conflicted for a long time, and do think I need to break up with him. His bad habits, lack of drive, and childish behavior are starting to ware.

However, he’s out of work now. Not sure what he wants to do for himself and has been taking a vacation at home in the mean time. I’m working 12 hours a day and though ya he’s doing somethings around the house it’s hardly consistent or substantial (1-2 hours of work tops). He’s been off for a month now. Our lease isn’t up till June, so if we break it it’ll be almost an extra two grand plus the expense of separating and moving to a new place. Since he’s not working he’s kind of screwed right now so part of me wants to wait till he is in a better place and can afford to move on his own.

But is that wrong to wait till then or should I just pull the trigger and take the financial hardship and screw him over?

Some days I get so close

And then the words get caught in my mouth.

I put my everything to my relationship with him and don’t really have friends.

Thanks