**TMI** My boyfriend spanked me

I didn’t know where else to turn for this but I need to share because it totally surprised me, it’s not like him (or maybe it is?) and I just need to know if any of y’alls SO’s are like that and idk, I’m just torn because part of me really liked it and another part of me thinks it’s really weird. When I say he spanked me, I don’t mean he smacked my ass while having sex a few times, I mean he spanked me, like a punishment spanked. Hard.

But here is the story;

We have been together just shy of a year but have known each other for 10 years. We have a crazy comfort level lol which is nice, but lately, there has been a side to him that I have never seen. He is more dominant and aggressive. Not in a mean way, idk how to really explain it. Anyway, we were in our room and I was putting away clothes and he came in and we were playing around and I got a slight attitude because I am just moody today and he told me to “drop my attitude” and me being me I was like “Or f*****g what?” And he said “If you don’t adjust it, I will do it for you, it’s unnecessary” now, mind you, he always says things like that and I always reply the same way which is I laugh and made a smart ass comment like “Yeah, okay, whatever you say” and he laughs and says “Yeah, I got nothing” and we move on, HOWEVER, this time he informed me that he was warning me and I just rolled my eyes and said “Yeah, I hear you, you should really work on your intimidation skills” and he was like “Oh yeah? You are about to regret that comment” and before I could get through another eye roll, he walked over to me, grabbed my arm, walked/pulled me over to our bed, with his other hand he yanked my pajama pants down, he sat down and told me to step closer to him, I didn’t, not even thinking his hand was still on my arm, and after 2 seconds he was like “Okay, we’ll do it my way then” and he yanked me towards him and then you guys, he yanked me down and bent me over his lap and he proceeded to spank me. Hard. And the whole time he asked me if I was going to lose my attitude. Did I like him having to spank me. Do I understand why he is. Blah blah blah.

My ass hurt so bad after and when he was done, he held me and laid me down and told me he loved me and rubbed my ass for a while after.

The whole experience was confusing and weird and embarrassing but it also turned me on in a way and a small part of me is hoping that he maintains this attitude and dominance because I kind of really liked him putting me over his knee and punishing me.

Im so confused, should I be seriously weirded out by it and even more so because i liked it? Do I say something to him?

So many feelings that I don’t know how to sort.

Ugh.