So done and discouraged

Tori • 28. Benjamin born 4/17/19. IVF warrior.

I am so tired of this garbage! Breasts are so sore it hurts to lay down. Nausea out of control. Smells, like the stupid spicy chorizo at Starbucks, make me want to barf. 11 days past when AF should have been here but still these stupid tests look negative as f! This is so stupid. “When you stop trying it happens” I call bulls*it! It’s just never going to happen. And now I get to put on the happy face and be happy for my coworker who is having her baby while I want to bash my head into a wall.