No more ttc....

I started birth control not too long ago. It was to regulate my period and help my bleeding so that in a few months I could hopefully get pregnant easier because I would be regular. My husband was talking to me about it yesterday and asked if I would stay on the birth control for a few years. I was confused and asked why he wanted this and he told me he has changed his mind on ttc and does not want kids at least for a few years. I am really sad about it, but it's not fair for me to get pregnant with him and him not wanting it. I guess this will give me time to change my life style and start eating better and lose weight because I am 300 pounds almost. It will also give us time to hopefully get a home that we own and get more settled in life and more ready for children, but my heart just hurts that we are no longer ttc.....