Frustrated Beyond Belief

This is how I feel right now.

My husband and I have been trying SO hard. And guess what? Just recalculated and my periods are now every 36 days, not every 25. (Got off the pill in April and it was every 25 days up until four months ago.)

So we thought this was our month...but it’s not.

I’m just feeling done. My husband is supportive and understanding, so much so that he agreed to get tested with me. We have an appointment with the fertility specialist on the 18th of this month. I’m hopeful that it’s an easy fix or they’ll have words of wisdom. But I’m just losing hope. This whole switch from 25 to 36 days has just thrown me. But we did have sex when I was fertile (I thought it was me ovulating a second time but it was only the first because I ovulated later).

I’m now spotting and have been since Sunday evening. But it seems to be my MO. I’ve also had negative pregnancy tests. I’m just ready for my period to START so I can figure out everything.

I was really hopeful that I’d at least get to tell my sisters and brothers in laws for Christmas but...🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😖

Thanks for letting me vent, ladies.

So thankful for this community.