Jealous...💔

Lately I've been on this app, more than usual. I actually neglected it for months but I had to come on it to see what's been going on. I see many girls still getting proposed to, many women having babies & then there's me....

Still where I've been for the past 7 years.

I think I'm a little jealous! My bf and I have been together long but our relationship is very bad as of now. We aren't getting along that well, he's very insecure and I don't blame him one bit. I have done some pretty shady things and well unfortunately he has too. in 2016 we were talking marriage and a second child, we came up with a plan that we would get married and he even told me to start looking for a ring I liked, He was too. I caught him on many jewelry websites and I thought it was super cute. We tried for a second baby but it just wasn't happening and it really broke our hearts. Along those lines we just became distant and we started arguing a lot and he even threatened to leave. All our plans for our future as a couple just vanished as if it never happened.

I can't help but cry when I see all these lovely ladies with their rings or their new borns because it could have been me too.

Today, I don't want anymore kids & I don't want to get married. I feel like crap saying it but emotionally I am not prepared and I feel I will never be again. I am only 23 years old and I feel like I'm making a decision that an older woman should be making.

Maybe my mind will change? I doubt it 😢💔