on August 31st I found out i was pregnant with UPT. only to find out that I was already miscarrying my baby. August 31st was my mom's birthday, so I was super excited due to her unexpected passing April 2016. I also have never wanted kids, until I got my first BFP. I never knew what it felt like to know I was going to have a baby of my own. I'm terrified. questions like am I gonna be a good mom?! silly right. I don't know if I can handle it with having PTSD.