so many emotions.


I want a baby more than anything in the whole world. My mom passed away Nov 8th and I started TTC on the first of Nov. my health hasn't been very good lately and I was diagnosed with PCOS, Gout, high blood sugar and my thyroid counts are ridiculously high. after all of the disappointments last month, I'm hoping for some good news this month. To top it all off, my little sister, who already has 2 kids, just found out she's pregnant again. "an angel our mom sent from heaven."

I can't help but feel so jealous of her.

I'm sad because besides the thyroid problem and being unable to lose weight I've been relatively healthy, and now all these things keep going wrong.

just wanted to vent. thanks to those who read this.