To this day it still bothers me..

My daughter was breech, so I had to get a c-section. It was two days before my due date. I am now 12 wks pp. I often think about the moment that they took her out of me and I cried happy tears.. but it just breaks my heart when I think about how she may have felt, how traumatic it must have been for her. Being peacefully in my womb and then out of nowhere all the cutting, the sounds, the lights and being distant from me for couple of hours. Just horrible. She may have forgotten it but still when she cries in her dreams I somehow immediately think about that moment. Is it just me, or does it also bother anyone else? I just think that if it was a natural birth and I would've had contractions that she somehow would've been "ready" to enter this world and go through those changes.