Grandma

Grandma passed away and I never got to meet her, I’m 20yrs old cane to America when I was 1 1/2 and never went to visit them not even when I had Immagrations permission to leave the country (US)and come back. Well my grandma had bad dementia and was suffering because no one was taking good care of her. When I found out she was dying I prayed to God that he could take my grandma if he could fill up the empty hole in my heart with a child and let me have a kid. Grandma died today at 5am; and my parents are saying I’m selfish and horrible for saying that it was good for her to leave this world but they don’t know that I see that suffering everyday at work since I’m a CNA. But any way I just hope I have a blessing coming up 😕